Happy Mother’s Day

I miss The way we discuss everything every morning in the 10 minutes ride to ur school
I miss ur anger when I did something wrong in ur eyes…
I miss ur laughs when I tell u a funny story…
I miss ur armpit whenever I lay my head in my tired condition…

Ibu …

I’m sorry I can’t be at your side.. for almost a year now..
I’m yet can’t makes u proud.. even in my mature age now..

Thankyou for risking your life for my exsistance..
Thankyou for every sacrifation u’ve made for this annoying creature..

I’ll do my best to make all of your pain paid..

Ibu … happy mothers day… I love you more than everything in this world

ya Allah.. I know I can trust you to keep my mom healthy and Happy …

ya Allah.. Ijinkan aku untuk segera kembali tertawa bersama ibuku lagi…. Amien..

For all Moms in the world.. Happy Mothers Day…

 

Just a Pray

But… Just like a knife cutting my heart to know that I can’t promise you tommorow…….. (perfect words u’ve said)

Masa lalu bukan untuk disesali.. masa lalu membuat kita lebih rasional, lebih dewasa… ketabahan dan keikhlasan menjalani hidup bukan sesuatu yang instant.

Thank God for giving me that lesson… whatever U may give to me… berilah aku kekuatan untuk menjalaninya, melewati apa yang harus kulewati. Jangan jadikan aku si lemah yang menyia-nyiakan hidup yang Kau berikan. Amien….

 

welcome New Angel..

Puji Syukur Kepada-Mu Sang Maha Penciptaku…

Hari ini aku dapat ponakan baru….

well… just excited.. semangat… berusaha jadi aunty yang dapat mereka banggakan…

first of May by Beegees
for my new niece…


When I was small, and christmas trees were tall
We used to love while others used to play
Dont ask me why, but time has passed us by,
Some one else moved in from far away

Now we are tall, and christmas trees are small,
And you dont ask the time of day
But you and i, our love will never die,
But guess well cry come first of may…

The apple tree that grew for you and me,
I watched the apples falling one by one.
And I recall the moment of them all,
The day I kissed your cheek and you were mine.

When I was small, and christmas trees were tall,
We used to love while others used to play.
Dont ask me why, but time has passed us by,
Some one else moved in from far away.

Now we are tall, and christmas trees are small,
And you dont ask the time of day.
But you and i, our love will never die,

But guess we’ll cry come first of may.

Alhamdulillah…

May Happiness always with u trough all ur life… amien…

 

Silent Wishes

 

Today is my twin sister’s b-day.. just sent them message. Hampir aja kelupaan. Pengen pulang pas pemilu.. huhuhu.. tiket mahal euy.. ga jadi. tekor kali bah!

stay a bit longer at office.. just love this silent moment…

Merenungi pekerjaan yang sehari sudah dijalani, kata-kata yang sudah meluncur.. ada yang jadi pemikiran hari ini.. my Big Mouth.. kadang susah juga ngontrolnya.. huhuhu.. penyesalan selalu datang belakangan. Semoga besok ga terulang lagi. Mulut yang tertutup dan pikiran yang selalu terbuka.. susah juga y but I’ll keep on trying.. and I’ll keep on moving… 

Silent is time to make a wish.. untuk orang-orang tercinta yang jasanya begitu besar dalam sejarah perjalanan hidupku as a human being. ga tau sampai kapan bisa sampai lunas membalasnya. Pengorbanan yang terlalu heroik.. pengorbanan yang terlalu tulus.. dan semua itu untukku. unbelievable. could I pay for that? I don’t think so.. but I’ll try the best I can.. 

My brain is full of sight of my future.. 5 years after this moment what will I’ll be.. will I be a good daughter that my mom wants me to be?.. will I be a good little sister of my olders?.. will I be a good wife?.. will I be a good mother?? huff… but ‘good’ has no exact definition, right? xixixi..

Happy Glorious Birthday, Girls..

Happiness is always with you… amien..

 

My first Week Moral Lesson

Finally here I am.. Seminggu sejak menginjakkan kaki di kota semrawut ini..  First impression.. cukup mengagetkan. The road is so wild indeed.

Seminggu sudah bergelut dengan perasaan terabaikan yang sangat mengganggu.. why so? I don’t know.. hanya perasaan terabaikan yang mungkin saja tidak beralasan. Timbul pertanyaan-pertanyaan aneh yang memenuhi kepala. Every single night.. every single morning I wake up… tapi sudahlah.. life must go on though.. masih banyak hari-hari yang menunggu untuk dilewati..

Trying to be more realistic day after day… ternyata tidak semua tindakan harus disertai alasan yang jelas. Tidak semua perkataan yang terlanjur terucap harus dipertanggungjawabkan. Selalu ada pemakluman untuk sebuah kesalahan. This is life girl.. tidak semua akan seindah yang dibayangkan.. since we’re only a human… we can only make plan..

Always think the positive side.. don’t judge.. berusaha tidak memberi ruang yang besar for the pathethic feeling.. bersabar… bersyukur.. bersyukur…

 

Those Three Words

Like the sound of silence calling, I hear your voice and suddenly I’m falling, lost in a dream. Like the echoes of our souls are meeting, You say those words and my heart stops beating. I wonder what it means. What could it be that comes over me? At times I can’t move. At times I can hardly breath.. lyrics by Josh Groban

omg.. this really is a new year for me. berapapun angka tahunnya, apapun ramalannya.. I don’t really give a damn.  brand new hope.. brand new chance.. brand new place to explore..

for twenty something years I locked up that door tightly..  and now I dare say I decided to open it. in this new year.. I dare to dream, I dare to fall, and I dare to look far away bravely for my future where I saw there is you beside me.  Amien ..

God did not look  for what you said, but God look for what is inside your heart

Alhamdulillah..

 

cheers..

Smile, though your heart is aching.
Smile, even though it’s breaking.
When there are clouds in the sky, you get by if you smile.
Through your fears and sorrow, smile.
And maybe tomorrow you’ll see the sun come shining through for you.
Light up your face with gladness.
Hide every trace of sadness, although a tear may be ever so near.
That’s the time you must keep on trying.
Smile, whats the use of crying
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile, if you just smile.

That’s the time you must keep on trying.
Smile, what’s the use of crying.
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile, if you just smile.
Smile.
Just smile.

smile by : Barbra Streisand

Yeahhhh….
I keep on smiling here.. though my heart is aching  
I keep on smiling here.. though you treat me like a thing 

SEMANGATTT !!!

 

After Pitulasan

Seharusnya posting ini ditulis kemarin. Tapi kondisi ga memungkinkan. Nafsu besar tapi tenaga ga ada now here I am.. fresh again… sehat walafiat lagi. ready to face the world again. yiiiha! dararam dararam

Dirgahayu indonesiaku! ke 63 yaw? hmmm dah kakek-kakek. Fyuh.. Akhirnya posting lagi. yup. there are some thing I wanna say sih. Ga kerasa dah memperingati hari kemerdekaan lagi. Kemarin pagi simpang lima ditutup. pagi2 dah muyer-muyer di jalanan crowded bgt. dah telat masuk kerja(piket). kesiangan cuz malemnya begadang ga jelas. Saking buru-buru plus jalan crowded bgt sampe nubruk bapak-bapak nyebrang. kena semprot habis2an sampe mo ditonjokin segala (ow.. thank God I’m female) yea.. guilty as charged!. Ya Allah… pagi yang aneh sampe di tempat kerja kaget cuz langsung disambut sirine di balaikota yg begitu nyaring bunyinya (secara persis d sebelah balaikota gitu). detik-detik proklamasi? meibi. mmm whatever-lah. something like that.

 

Jaga Malem.. sapa takut!

Sepi… ditemani chasing cars-nya snow patrol… what a silent nite… eh.. dah pagi ding.

2 gelas kopi ampuh banget. Gila… ga ngantuk blas. Tugas jaga malemku yang pertama.. well.. it’s kinda fun. Spooky thing is just a gossip

Ga da telpon berdering. There’s no trouble kebetulan. Harusnya ada biar seru… huhuhu.

Donlot2 donald duck mpe puas.. haduw… harusnya blajar ini itu malah end up with donald duck dan tiga ponakannya yang nakal2. Mehehehe habis seru sih

Okay.. bentar lagi pulang ah… need to clean my body & need to sleep…

 

Mari Berbahagia

Weleh… kali ini judulnya ga komersil. Gpp deh sekali kali (lho.. biasane piye?)

Kemaren dapat amanah dari tmen suruh ngabadiin momen bersejarahnya dia. Tuker cincin euy… [Sekali lagi slamat ya Mier..] . hmmm pelm ayat2 cinta gi heboh as u know. Beberapa teman menjelma jadi advokat ayat2 cinta. Sampe yang blom nonton kyak aku ini dicap ‘payah’. Ah yo wes ben. Seolah hidup di rezim soeharto yang wajib liat pelm G 30 S PKI. Eh… koq k situ

 

The Half End of Bloody Question

Mata dah ga kuat kebuka lebar lagi.. tumben. but I have to keep them open. Besok dah jumat.. brarti tinggal sehari lagi untuk mencari tahu jawaban dari pertanyaan mengerikan. Yang intinya what is my future plan. What am I gonna do with life. Sminggu yang diberikan untuk sebuah pertanyaan yang ternyata sampe detik ini belom aku dapatkan jawabannya (tak kiro kae gampang). Keep on trying to ask my inner voice… tapi sepertinya si inner lagi ambil cuti ke swahili buat se-sasi. Hapenya juga dimatiin meibi ga ada sinyal. Haduw.. where r u when I reallry need u??!!!

 

Dari Zuckerberg, Plagiarism, sampai Gen Panjang Umur

Back to the reality setelah seharian pretend to be the happiest person on earth. Hehhe.. [aneh] . Dah beberapa hari ini g ngikutin peristiwa2 yg terjadi d jagad raya (ceile..). Click on BBC katanya Bill Gates dah tergilas sama Warren Buffet. Pak Gates bukan lagi orang terkaya #1 di dunia yang konon katanya fana ini (jan-jane fana ki opo to?). Trus ada nama baru yang baru aja aku denger [walah katro’ ] Max Zuckerberg pendiri jaringan sosial lewat internet Facebook yang dilaporkan oleh mas Forbes sebagai milyarder termuda dalam sejarah yang bner2 otentik (maksudnya g karna ortunya ato kakeknya kaya trus dia dapet warisan). Umur 23 dah jadi milyarder dengan kekayaan yang terus meningkat pesat. Busset dah rruarr biassah!

 

Worst Worry

Here comes February…. sebentar lagi Maret & U’ll be in the age of one (1). Koq cpet bgt sih… every single breath I take, every move I make… [halah kya lagu aja] I can’t take it comfortly bcoz of a big worry. Iya syauqi… aunty maul kuatir bgt. sumpe. Kuatir klo aunty ngga bisa menjadi seseorang yang layak kau banggakan. Why r u growing so fast?? sementara aku masih tetap d posisi yg sama. maju nggak… ah… mundur lebih tepat barangkali. I’m so worry….